The harder you work the harder it is to surrender.
What I've realized is that addiction and alcoholism is kinda like that.
Don't get me wrong I'm not saying that if you drink that you're an alcoholic. Or that if you use mind altering substances that you are an addict.
I'm just saying that if we work harder on staying f@$%*d up than we do on anything else, than maybe that's something to look at.
What are you working harder on?
Going in the direction you want? .
Or are you on the metaphorical treadmill?