My life has been evolving. A lot of what I have done has been helpful. But I have been seeing that some of what I have been doing has been feeding the same demons that I have been battling. Putting another mask on it and calling it something different. But what I am aiming for is an evolution. Letting go of the “ME” that I think I am drop away so that all that is left is the real and raw me. I started my blog originally to fill a need for external validation. That need was one of the driving factors of why I used and drank like I did. Putting drugs and booze into my body was a solution to my problem or so I thought. I didn’t want to care about all of that stuff. The pain wasn’t worth it. So I just tried to make it all go away. But the reality is that I do care. Trying to pretend like I don't that takes away from purpose and drive for the joys of life for me. I am now taking this in a new direction. I am going to talk more about my process, progress and evolution. My intention is to be all inclusive never excluding anyone from the opportunity to progress in their own way. Emotionally, mentally, physically, spiritually and even financially. I want to be a beacon of hope. Where that phrase Hold On Pain Ends for Hope can transform into Helping Other People Evolve. I'm a leader. And I don't want to create followers I want to create more leaders!